Today was good because I was busy at work and their I am surrounded by healthy people with healthy intentions. I am busy there so I don't crave foods, I have tea throughout the day. I don't have alot of energy though and still no desire to workout. I actually find joy in eating foods like cookies or chips and chocolate now I can't and it frustrates me. I have a relationship with food that goes beyond just eating for fuel. Eating those types of food makes me happy until my pants get tight or I feel it in my gut. It makes me sad that I can't eat that way. Even though I know that eating for health results in better health and well being, I still get sad that I can't eat a few cookies or chips or all the things that are bad for you. I like them.
I try to remember how I feel in the morning when I have done good and my clothes start to get loose but afternoon and evening are real challenges for me. I hope it gets easier soon but I feel it is getting harder. I don't know if there is a breaking point for this or if my body is craving at this moment because of my cycle and where I am with that. I hope it gets easier or I feel it will be hard to make this a lifetime pattern. I guess today has ended on a tough note. Hope tomorrow is easier. Ciao for now.
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