Day 14

Its a new day, started my period so I feel better. Woke up hungry and weighed myself... I am only at 159.9 and I started at about 164. Not much of a weight loss, but I haven't been doing any cardio. I don't like this burst training and since I have been told that walking will not work I haven't been doing that either. I am going to stick to walking because I like it and I understand the concept of bursting so maybe I will jump on the band wagon at some point in time. Exercise has not been a staple in my life lately and I know that has to change. I have some deadlines that won't let me be at peace in my head so exercise is going to have to weight. Psychological stuff takes precedence. I do yoga and I have been doing the slow weight resistence training once a week for three weeks now...they say that is enough, I am finding it hard to believe but I will test it out. I am eating too many calories for not exercising, i think I have figured out that I am eating aprox. 1800 which is what it would be to sustain my weight. I am going to drop it down to 1550, so my dinners need to be a little less and monitored. So this next week I am going to kick it into gear and see if I can get to 155, we shall see. I will keep you posted. Ciao for now...

Day 13

Was absolutely horrible, I had such bad pms, i don't know if it was because of my liver or what but my serotonin levels were low, I was craving sweets like crazy, I was angry and lethargic...a general melaze was over me and I couldn't shake it. Fortunatly I work at a place that has many herbs and I blue vervained my way through it. I did eat though, I ate more of a snack...a lara bar, some marys gone crackers with hummus and well....an organic brownie (had to do it) I ate lunch that had too much fat on it and I ended up bloated and gassy at the end of the day...yuck! So I had a shake last night and fought off the cravings that have crept back in. I was able to at least go to the sauna and sweat.

Day 10

Today was much much better, I decided to juice a couple of carrots, cucumber and celery and use that for the base of my shake, I was not hungry till about 3:30 and had a red pepper with white bean hummus. My dinner consisted of grilled asparagus and zucchini, sauteed mushrooms and onions, 5 oz of chicken and a small red potato...I forgot to make the brown rice so I had to have a high GI starch...oh and I had salad with the balsamic vinegrette dressing. I still often want dessert and that is a lifetime habit that may never change. I really love dessert, but I had some raspberries instead. My energy was high today, I went to yoga and had a great workout and sweated too. My pants are a tad bit looser and i am staying off of the scale. My hormones seem to be in a good balance so I have to say 10 days it has taken to feel like this. My stomach is still a bit bloated, I don't really understand that. I have been pooping just fine, once a day pretty complete too, but I will keep you posted on my belly issues.
Ciao for now...

Day 9

Yes it is day 9 so I have not journaled since day 5, I had a very hard day yesterday. I started replacing two meals with shakes yesterday and honestly I don't know if it was the thought of missing a normal lunch or what but I had very very low energy and I felt off. I don't believe the detox powder could kick in so fast so it must have been psychological. My state of mind was crappy. It worried me that I wasn't doing enough or I was doing to much and I didn't really feel that the support I was getting was there, I need more. I had questions and no one was answering me. So today I am going to do the same, my two shakes, have a snack and see how I feel. My stomach has been bloated since I started this program although I have been pooping everyday. I do my GI protocol everyday so I don't know what that is all about. I have so much to do with my presentations for school and my presentation for girls at summer camp and only a few weeks left to complete them all it causes me stress and on top of that I feel if I don't exercise this detox just won't work. yikes! so much. I don't want this detox to cause me stress so I am not going to let it. I will try to exercise but I may not. I do yoga twice a week and this next week will be an opportunity to do some strength training. I will give bursting a go again. I did it once on my elliptical at home last week but that was it. I worry because I am not an exerciser I will never be thinner. I find exercise boring and haven't found anything to be fun except horseback riding and that is too expensive. I will just keeping trying to find that perfect thing for me. Ciao for now...

Day 5

Yesterday was a rough day, my hormones seemed a bit unbalanced and I was itchy like I was getting hives. I did some burst training, then went to yoga and had a great workout and I sweat. I stopped itching and felt so much better. It is so important to sweat as you detox I have come to personally realize. My weight has leveled off at this time but that is okay it means I have to move more. I also starting my GI protocol and accidentally did a whole scoop of GI Fortify....um don't do that, my stomach bloated like crazy and I was very uncomfortable all night. This morning I did the teaspoon like JJ recommended and it was much better. I was in school yesterday as well and we are on the module of Allergy and Immune system and support and what we are doing is so good for us. Please make sure you support your liver with Cruciferous veggies (Broccoli, cabbage, bok choy, arugula, cauliflower) , sulfuric foods (garlic, leeks chives and onions), foods high in glutathione (asparagus and avocado). Herbs like dandilion root, chicory and nettles. Exercise and stress management is key.
I have to thank some of the wonderful, supporting people on my Fast Track forum, some of the reminders of staying positive and not feeding the negative are fantastic. Remembering my accomplishments in life and holding myself in the highest regard is something I often say but I need to remember to walk the walk and talk the talk. One of my friends gave me the idea to listen to songs as inspirations and reminders. These are wonderful tools. I am doing great on my journey, better than ever and I am feeling healthier every moment. I am looking forward to taking this journey to the next level for some higher intensity detoxing. Thanks so much to all my new and old friends that are encouraging me and helping me make this journey a great one.

Day 4

Today was good because I was busy at work and their I am surrounded by healthy people with healthy intentions. I am busy there so I don't crave foods, I have tea throughout the day. I don't have alot of energy though and still no desire to workout. I actually find joy in eating foods like cookies or chips and chocolate now I can't and it frustrates me. I have a relationship with food that goes beyond just eating for fuel. Eating those types of food makes me happy until my pants get tight or I feel it in my gut. It makes me sad that I can't eat that way. Even though I know that eating for health results in better health and well being, I still get sad that I can't eat a few cookies or chips or all the things that are bad for you. I like them.
I try to remember how I feel in the morning when I have done good and my clothes start to get loose but afternoon and evening are real challenges for me. I hope it gets easier soon but I feel it is getting harder. I don't know if there is a breaking point for this or if my body is craving at this moment because of my cycle and where I am with that. I hope it gets easier or I feel it will be hard to make this a lifetime pattern. I guess today has ended on a tough note. Hope tomorrow is easier. Ciao for now.

Day 3

Today is Day 3 and day 13, day 13 being my cycle. I am feeling well rested, motivated, slightly energetic and pretty happy. I craved sweets alittle last night but I think because I made my boys cookies for their lunches and they smelled yummy. I am down to 159.4 meaning I have lost about 4 lbs in 4 days so I feel I am on the right track. I am not quite exercising like I should be yet which I am going to plan it this week. Day 13 for me is usually when I am really hungry and a bit off so I am monitoring how my hormones are doing through this. So far so good. I am really learning about my body with this program that I am on and how by really eating clean and healthy you will become the weight you need to be. I am not looking for perfection but I am certainly looking for health. I am not a triathelete nor am I obsessed with being thin but to be where my body wants to be will make me so happy and with this program it will be. I am a little nervous about cranking up the detox phase with two shakes a day but I will see how I do. I think maybe if on days I just can't then I won't and others I might be able to. It will all make a difference anyway.
I have so much to do I have to sign off now but i wanted to journal how I was feeling and I am ready for another day of eating clean. Just had my shake, my supplements and soon I will start my GI protocol. I have been regular but seemingly I feel not complete emptying and only once. Ciao for now...

Day 2

I didn't feel like doing much, it's raining. I had intentions of going to the gym and excercising and sitting in the sauna but that fell by the wayside. I was alittle bluesy on Saturday. I ate very well I had my shake in the am, turkey burger with Kale and Garlic for lunch, a few cashews and strawberries for snack and a big salad with vinagrette and salmon fresh from the farmers market for dinner. I went out with some girlfriends and I drank muddled orange with mint leaves and soda water, it felt strange at first, I felt left out because I wasn't eating or drinking, although I was full....then they order a brownie sundae, didn't have any, i was proud of myself, I was trying to think and act like a healthy person and I felt that way. It is amazing how people are so gluttonous in there eating, it's gross. We then went out to a bar and they were all drinking and I was done for the night with drinking anything and I was having a good time, that is a first. People kept asking me why I wasn't drinking and I said I was doing a detox program and they said."oh, I am sorry"...why be sorry, I like it, I actually felt under control for the first time in my life...it was great.
I was a little hungry yesterday but i think it was because I was in the house all day not doing anything.
So I am done with Day 2 and now I am on Day 3...I didn't journal yesterday. My mood wasn't anything different really but my sugar cravings weren't much at all like they used to be....I know you are supposed to weigh yourself weekly but I am already down 3 lbs in two days. I am going to stay off the scale now, I needed to see if I was going in the right direction. Sometimes when I eat what seems to be more than I was at meal times with more fats etc. I have to make sure...and yep it is coming off. That makes me happy and so does this new found ability to be in control in these situations...I have a feeling this is going to be one of those things that changes my life and I am very happy about that. Until tomorrow...or the next day, journaling is hard for me to keep up with...but maybe this too will change my life so I am going to give it a shot. Ciao for now...

Day 1

I am beginning my journey through my very first detox program. It is through JJ Virgin's fast track to summer detox program and although I am excited for all the great promised results, I am a bit nervous and overwhelmed. I know all I have to do is prepare meals, have leftovers and not get too hungry. The exercise on the other hand even though it is bursting for only 4-6 min a day 3 days a week, I keep finding myself putting it off. I will do it, I just started and so far I have done great today, tonight is another story, first going to an employee appreciation dinner at a restaurant, then going out with girlfriends to a party where I will be drinking nothing but Pelligrino water. I can do this....
I have progressively pulled out of my sad frustrated mood that I was in earlier and I feel pretty good. I have had hormonal imbalances for years with side notes of depression. I am journaling to track how this detox program effects my moods and depression. I am on day 10 of my cycle and have had plumeting moods around day 5-13 when estrogen peaks. See you tomorrow for Day 2 on detox, day 11 of my cycle and how I did tonight....
ciao for now